fav coffee cup

just realised where i put that fav coffee cup of mine. its right behind me all the time. under some papers and file. hidden from civilisation.

and now i dare not look at it. theres still some coffee in it. age of coffee is about two months old. i dare not clean it also. becos it got mould growing in it and it growls at me! the mould i mean.

looking forward to drive my new set of wheels. hehe.

yea yea New Toy

just bought meself a new toy - Panasonic Lumix Digital camera. 2.0 MegaPix and the fella threw in a 64 Meg memory card. yippee.
looking for some kind of instant gratification i am. ok gonna shoot meself some pictures.wait...can't seem to decide what to shoot.

shucks...PC cannot recognise memory card. c'mon, just recognise the blardy small fella willya?...i'm not asking too much am i? goodness.

A Personal "Bali Blast"
too many hatred, anger and violence around the world. not really a good time to have personal issue with anyone. someone is angry with me and i am feeling rather sad. i am having my own personal "Bali Blast" in me right now. no mood to post anything at KNS or Blind8.
talking about B8, Saffire and CPA, the two americans i know there, are alive and well. Yay for them! not that i love them so much, nor do i detest them. they truly personify the americans i have in my head - headstrong, brash, loud, opinionated, independent, intelligent and don't give a crap as to what people think of them. hehehe. you'll feel you wanna box their american nose already. oooops. but i missed them too...missed their thoughts.
it is my only hope that world would not divide into two: muslims and non-muslims. someone in-between is gleefully waiting for the spoils of war.
my condolences and thoughts to the family and friends of the Bali Blast victims.

somebody said, "The true spirit of education is not so much the acquisition of knowledge, but a quickening from apathy."
its true isn't it?

it was the first time i got to meet all those folks whom i've been "talking" to at The Knapsack Pub ( a forum offshoot from the Blind8 Forum at PacNet). feels kinda weird talking to faces, real living human faces, and not PC screen monitor.

dinner at amiran's was okay (the restaurant & the food). Got meself a Pan-fried salmon fillet served with Tarragon cheese sauce, corn rice and daily farm veggetables. not bad. somehow i've tasted fresher salmon. the veggies alright and the corn rice nice.

the Tarragon cheese sauce is okay, except that i do not know what the hell a tarragon is. sounds like something from The Lord of the Rings.

dictionary check revelas that:
tarragon noun [U]
a plant with whitish flowers whose narrow leaves are used in cooking as a herb, having a taste which is similar to liquorice
- Tarragon is often used in chicken dishes.

the price is cool tho...not that pricey as expected.

But of cos, the company then made up for any shortcoming of the food. Well, I've never met them before. Didn't know what to expect.
naughtycat, wildcat, dashx, reality, leeson, undead, jupiter, saturn, moi, blizzard, trikit, darth guy, rinpoche, sputnik, poseidon & joelle. naughtycat bought me the Iain Banks' Complicity...woweee, reading it now.

hope to join them again soon.

e-freaking-mail

short version: work sux

long version: no phone rang nor people jumping out from nowhere telling you to do this or that. none. yippee.yippee-short-lived when i opened the freaking email. Okay, 15 in inbox. 2 asking for a project papers and asking them for now and urgent as hell. 3 asking for returns and reports. One asking who the hell put a dead frog in his in tray. 5 full of utterly meaningless info. 3 spams from god-knows-where (one of which actually contain virus but cleaned at the firewall) and ONE KILLER email: "Please attend todays meeting at 9.30 am on my behalf...blah blah..blah...".

so i went to a meeting not knowing the agenda nor what i was going to say on my boss' behalf. spend the entire meeting trying to decipher frogface's words. coffee was good though. i didn't actually doze off! am so proud of myself.

Hot & Cold

its hot outside. and very cold here, in my cubicle.

as i look into this cup of tea, i heard me telling myself how i wish i could just crawl into it. so nice and warm. another part of me said, "why dont u just put the tea-bags in a bathtub?". the other part replied," its not the tea i want, stupid. its the warmth!". huh.

these are the things i have to put up with everyday.

talking about warmth, a hug will do just nice now.

is it just me or is gravity is working abit harder today? guess thats how one feel when one feel the burden upon one's shoulder. the stress will get worse. hey! i am sure i can take whatever the world can dish up for me! heheh! i'm a buffalo! i can carry the world, and then some.

geez i need a puff.

World Animal Day

Went to stadium Cove yesterday (Sunday). Saw many dogs bringing their owner out for a walk. All dogs were nicely dressed (yeah in hot Singapore) and DID NOT SHIT anywhere they want.

Saw one particular stray dog among all the other dogs and people. It was a sad sight. Like an orphan among crowds of children with their moms and dads during school PTA.

tot of approaching sad, lonely, dirty dogs.

decided not to when dog look at me and said (in his mind i'm sure he said),"what gave you the illusion that i give a crap?".
bad dog.

The Rabbit Society people were there too. Perhaps Rabbits and Dogs went back far in time and were buddies and celebrate things together. Did not see the Cat Soc people, or the Iguana Soc people.

Shouldn't they have Animal Week instead? Two out 365 looks kinda short to me.

Today is a postcard

Today is a postcard: blue skies and butterflies, sunny, with a constant warm breeze. the clouds were like fluffy cotton candies floating above. i let the road hypnotize me until steering became innate, automatically effortless like breathing. i hummed and sang and moved to rythm of whatever that was playing in the radio. it was good.

Tolstoy's words suddenly appeared in my mind.

"I wanted movement and not a calm course of existence. I wanted excitement and danger and the chance to sacrifice myself for my love. I felt in myself a superabundance of energy which found no outlet in our quiet life."

something which i missed dearly. born free. as free as the wind blow.

driving (freely) on a stretch of road somehow made me focus on thoughts that usually got choke off by the daily mundane thoughts.