Death
Death. So final. A sudden fullstop in a string of words. An ending that cannot be avoided.
Attended a colleauge's funeral today. Not sure how he died, but it seems that he passed away while driving to KL. Cardiac arrest or so.
A few minutes ago got a call from Sis, saying that an auntie of mine passed away too. She was already in a state whereby you can see life slipping away, as the sickness that beseiged her eat away at her physical self. Stomach cancer. They managed to bring her back home before she passed away, leaving this world with husband and kids around her. With relatives and friends in attendance.
Two deaths. One sudden, and the other a slow wait. Different manner, same end.
How would I go? How do I want to go? We can never choose, can we?
As I walked away from the grave I am reminded that one day I will be the one lying there deep under the earth while other people walk away from my grave. And they will go back to their life, their routines and their loved ones. And forget about me. Just like how I will forget the person that is now lying there in the grave that I just walked away from.
I know, this has been a grim post. I do not know how to gloss over death with cheerfulness of life. Life that is with me now and will soon take the same path of the inevitable destination.
Innalillah wa inna ilaihi rajioon.
Attended a colleauge's funeral today. Not sure how he died, but it seems that he passed away while driving to KL. Cardiac arrest or so.
A few minutes ago got a call from Sis, saying that an auntie of mine passed away too. She was already in a state whereby you can see life slipping away, as the sickness that beseiged her eat away at her physical self. Stomach cancer. They managed to bring her back home before she passed away, leaving this world with husband and kids around her. With relatives and friends in attendance.
Two deaths. One sudden, and the other a slow wait. Different manner, same end.
How would I go? How do I want to go? We can never choose, can we?
As I walked away from the grave I am reminded that one day I will be the one lying there deep under the earth while other people walk away from my grave. And they will go back to their life, their routines and their loved ones. And forget about me. Just like how I will forget the person that is now lying there in the grave that I just walked away from.
I know, this has been a grim post. I do not know how to gloss over death with cheerfulness of life. Life that is with me now and will soon take the same path of the inevitable destination.
Innalillah wa inna ilaihi rajioon.
4 Comments:
Dear Bbob, how about thinking it this way?
"Death is the release from all pain and complete cessation beyond which our suffering will not extend. It will return to us that condition of tranquility, which we had enjoyed before we were born."
Yo alph.
Yep, I can do that. But the cessation of all pain also means the numbness to all pleasures? hehee....You can't really appreciate light without some experiences of darkness, rite?
heh, you r the first to comments in eons. I used to have 1 million comments. Yeah sure. :)
At large, you do have your points too. Not forgetting without an 'end', when's the next 'start'?
Slightly different, my eyeballs fixed more on the word 'tranquility'... (do I yearn for that more or is it simply) the non-attachment to material losses you can't hold onto anyway?
Then let me be the one in the million (when you've gotten your wish).
Be sure what you wish for... keke
And how would you approach your kids on the issue 'DEATH'?
I mean I operate without regrets, I just move forward. If I die out of a sudden, my kids will be taught that they can have moments of sorrow but not for long, becos their mum will always be around in nature to embrace them as long as they take good care of the nature (I've returned to be part of mother nature) :P How about that? Nice way to coax kids? I thought this is a better comfort.
Most importantly I know nature will continue to teach lessons and impart wisdom via kids' receptive capacity. I would like them to be close to nature.
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